How many times did I have to give up mom? How did I feel when I got to visit her only to leave her behind the door with the little window with wires running through it? She would wave and blow kisses to me thru that window. I still have to see her through those windows. I remember one time when you, me and grandma mcintosh were leaving in the z28 from christ hospital. I was in the back seat watching mom wave to me from the front lobby of the hospital. I waved until I couldn't see her anymore from the back window of the car with tears pouring down my face, whispering,"bye bye mommy..i love you mommy...i miss you mommy" You talk about a child that was hurt...oh my heart broke everytime I left her there. It's like a nightmare that never ends. Poor mom is in such bad shape. I love her so much but I just can't bear to have my other parent pass away in my arms...I don't care what any of the family says I did everything the way YOU told me you wanted it done. While I stayed with you and after you passed away. Nobody else has actually lived behind those doors with you,mom and me. I mean, after all who was all there the night you passed away dad?? Oh, that's right...only ME...Who was the only person willing to go through probate to get mom the help she has needed for a long time now..who were the ones on both sides of the family DICTATING how to do it all and voice their opinions, but NEVER wanted to step up and HELP ME...For example,a couple people said from the family, they know who they are, said "I could never take her back after she shot at me." Well the one thing I learned from you and mom is that there was no love stronger than you and hers for each other because by-god NONE of them could've endured what you and mom went through all those years and come out on the other side STILL LOVING EACH OTHER ENOUGH TO STAY TOGETHER...NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAID TO TRY TO STOP YOU! YOU BOTH FOLLOWED YOUR HEARTS AND STUCK IT IT OUT TIL DEATH DO YOU PART. Sure a lot of couples stay together til the end, but not having to fight a life destroying mental disorder like paranoid schizphrenia for all the years they were together. Plus all the wonderful caring loving family members that told you to LEAVE her. I'm so glad you didn't listen to other people Dad. You taught me the most IMPORTANT THING..don't let other people live your life for you. You and mom truly loved each other to the very bottom of your souls...You are my hero daddy, no matter what anyone says...I respect you and love you for sticking with mom all these years. She loves you sooo much. You are both of our guardian angel now...Rest in Peace Daddy.
You don't have to suffer anymore now.
Love you from the bottom of my heart...ALWAYS